A New Year Approaches

I've noticed more doctors popping up on the internet professing their expertise on Brachymetatarsia. Regardless of opinions on that subject, I'm hoping this means more open doors for people with Brachy, and more options.

I get to enter a new year with better feet. I'm grateful. Things worth having often comes with challenges and hurdles. I'm happy to be past mine in this area.

Life is too short to live with regrets or hating parts about yourself. Surgery isn't for everyone, but happiness is. Be happy. Shine where you are.

The big "D" word!

Depression. Very controversial subject among people. Even further for Christians. Everyone has their own belief about what it is, the types there are, treatments, etc.

I'm not about to get into all that. I just wanted to share a little something I found. I've not known myself to be a depressed person. Like all teenagers I had my rough times. As an adult I just don't have time for it. My pity parties are short lived cuz there is just too much to do and it's not my cup of tea. 

Going through post-op offered a lot of down time and being in solitude magnified things. I found it difficult. I was not depressed, but too often felt sad. After the fact, when I was already walking, I looked for a natural supplement that would help with this state that seemed to linger.

After some prayer and a 'lil research I started St. John's Wart. I did begin to feel much better. And No, it wasn't a placebo effect because when I got it, I pretty much figured I had wasted my money.

I wanted to post my finding right away, but I've waited a few months to really see. It turns out that I find myself down and discover it's been a week since I've taken it. I take it daily. So you may want to try it, perhaps it may work for you if you find you need to "balance" your mood. That's what I use it for. Be sure get it with "Hypericin".

Tootles! 

UPDATE:  If you remove refined sugars (all sugars that are not from fresh fruits/veggies) you'll stabilize your emotions and not even need St. John's Wart!)

10 MONTHS! —Range of Motion Update!

Howdy. I took these 'before' shots 10 months ago waiting for this day to come. ;o) So here we go.

Not much to say with these because the pictures say it all. I will tell you that I'm flexing and tightening my grip like crazy in my after shots, just like in the before shots.

I was wearing my very old canvas shoes the other day (first time in a year), and I noticed something. There is a dark area right where my Brachy toe use to be, on the left. 

Hmmm, funny how we all know that it's raised up in there rubbing against the top of our shoes, but I'd really never seen the evidence of it on the outside like that. (I think it may be because I was always looking at the bulge my bunions were making instead. lol)

So that's the update. I feel fine. The sciatic pain is improving month by month, so I'm happy about that. Very happy! ;o)

I do hope if you are considering surgery you can find answers to some of your questions among these posts.

Tootles!

Bits and Bobs— 9.5mo Post-Op

While this Autumn has been a warm one, allowing me to continue to spoil myself with flip-flops, the cold weather will come and my feet will have to get use to closed shoes again.

I bought a pair of boots. Aren't they snazzy? A little higher heel than I would have wanted (2.25"), but I do like them a lot. I wore them for 7 hours. My foot hurt for the rest of the day. Mostly where the bone graph is. That bone area seems to get pressure whenever you wear any kind of a heel.

With my foot as it was, I would not have been able to wear these boots. My bunions wouldn't have allowed it. And the vertical room in the front of the boot wouldn't have allowed for my Brachy toe to fit.

Click for larger view.

Another thing I discovered while I shopped for shoes these past few months, is that I felt lost while shopping.

Not so much because I was in a weird in-between stage, where I wasn't in closed or dressy shoes yet, but because I just don't know how to shop for my new feet yet.

I found I kept going for shoes that I use to have to wear. It turns out that your style and taste for shoes has been greatly influenced by having Brachy. I would pick up a pair I liked... then frown cuz they were what my closet is full of.... square toe, with high vertical space in the front. 

I will not be buying the real popular sharp-pointed toe shoes because I don't want my bunions to return, but it's plain to see that I will have to develop a new taste in shoes for my new feet. I did not anticipate this lost feeling while shopping.

But I'm not worried at all, this will straighten itself out in time I'm sure. ;o) Lol.

Lastly, wearing flip-flops has allowed me to feel something I can't remember ever feeling.... the cool/warm air on my toes in the car! ;o) When this first happened on a hot day, I was pleasantly surprised at the feeling of the air conditioning on my exposed feet. It was so nice to feel that! 

I had to wait a few months to wear these. The straps are real snug. While I waited, I sewed on some small beads. ;o)

Where my toe would have been.

Sometimes my foot doesn't look right to me. It seems to me that my fourth toe doesn't belong. It's weird. Not use to seeing a toe where there is a toe now. Lol.

 Tootles!

9mo Post-Op —My Cruise

I'm back! My vacation was great. Was good to really get a change of scenery after so many months. I packed my prescription pain killers that I hadn't used in quite some time just in case. 

I had sciatic pain once I got onto the cruise (I suppose it was the travel)... But I discovered I hadn't packed them after all. 

I don't know why I had this pain nearly the entire trip, but I pretty much popped Aleve like it was candy. Perhaps it was the fact that I was constantly walking around taking pictures. (got a new lens) But I don't believe my sciatic pain is induced by walking. The pain goes up beside my hamstring and into my buttock. I just think I'm getting over some aggravation to it during surgery.

My feet did swell each night, Aleve helps with inflammation.

What kept me going was the photography! There were many christian entertainers on this cruise, so they became my subjects.

Oh, my Pedicure! My first evening on the cruise, I went up to the spa and booked an AM pedicure appointment for the following morning— my birthday, yay! It was a great experience! 

Preeeetty. ;o)

My quick recap is that I get better each month. And that I'm working on the range of movement of my big toe on my Brachy foot.

**I didn't realize this, but because I had Brachy on the same foot, my bunionectomy DID NOT get the post-op attention it needed to regain my mobility there. With Brachy you don't do anything with your foot for at least 3 months... this actually harmed the mobility in the joint of my big toe. Normally you'd be working on it about 3 weeks post-op. ;o/

So my left big toe is much stiffer than my right. But what's done is done and I just work at it as best I can now. ;o)

Not in heels yet. Not sure if I will ever go back to really high heels actually. It's been a warm Autumn, so I still do flip-flops! ;o)

Tootles!

8 Month Mark

          (34 weeks) 
Hello all. Autumn is here! Isn't it lovely?! ;o)


At this point I am pretty sure that the Sciatic nerve issue I've experienced is not usual. I really haven't heard anyone else who's had this surgery mention it. 

I also no longer think it was ONLY due to how I was sitting post-op. I think it's more than that. When you look at how this nerve runs all the way down your leg, and to your heel, I now believe that the heel surgery itself had something to do with this. I think it was aggravated somehow during surgery.

I had Brachy and Bunion surgery on my left, and only Bunion surgery on my right. The sciatic issues are only on my left. I really feel the "heel" surgery aggravated my nerve because if it were the sitting position I did months ago, it should really be gone now, and it's not.

I believe I will be well again and it will be gone at some point, but for now, after 8 and a half months it comes and goes.

I am now on the treadmill several days a week. I do a max on 4.0 speed and 7.0 incline. Only walking for an hour. Because the pain comes and goes so sporadically I still don't know if exercise helps or hurts it. I just started on the treadmill so time will tell. (update: I had to stop the gym, it got to be too painfull.)

It's still not freezing out so I'm mostly in flip-flops. And I work from home so the only closed shoes I am really wearing are sneakers. Because of my bunionectomies, wearing closed shoes will take a while. If it was only Brachy I'm sure I'd be wearing them already.

GOOD NEWS! Remember that trip I booked?! Well it's in 3 weeks!!!!! Wow it's been a long haul. Remember this? 

Well things do get better. I look back at my struggles and I'm very grateful to be past them. All I have now is the sciatic pain that comes and goes (it flows into my buttock and makes me limp), and my feet still swell a bit.

But now it's time to look forward to my trip! YAY! I'm planning to have my first ever professional pedicure on the Cruise, ON MY BIRTHDAY!

I will try to take snapshots of the event to post. lol. Next post will have foot pics for sure, I promise! ;o)

Tootles!

Pictures Don't Lie!

I've been waiting for this moment for a long time. ;o)       (8mo/32 wks)

(If there is a larger image available, you can view it by clicking it.)

12.5 mm gain in length

Amazing shift in bone structure

7.5 Months Post-Op Update

Feeling even better!                                                     (32 weeks) 

I took the risk and went on a very short photography hike. It was great! It was a very slow pace and it lasted two hours. When I got to my car to drive home my leg was starting to hurt (sciatic nerve), and my bone graph in my 4th metatarsal was actually aching. 

But again, once I rested things were fine. So I think it's all good.

Recently I did wear a wedge heel sandal. It had no cushion whatsoever. I could walk to where I was going and sit with them. But walking back to my car I noticed I was limping and favoring my right side. (So even though I had surgery only 3 months ago on my right foot, it still feels better than my Brachy foot surgery from 8mo ago.) But it's still progress. ;o)

There is less swelling in my left foot so it looks more defined now.

Nice to have the bunion reduced on my right too.

These socks actually press in areas that really accentuate my bunions. They sort of still look big don't they?  lol.  But I feel it's partly the socks. I think once I start taking photos of my new feet IN shoes, I'll appreciate my surgeries even more.

Sure, I wish I had a straight line for my 1st toe, but you can't have everything.

These are the very first flip-flops I purchased after my surgery. I LOVE them, they are so soft and comfy. I hope they last forever. 

Seven month scar update.
They are coming along.














Numbness 
My skin is still slightly numb in these areas. The areas use to bit a bit larger. Compare it to the 6th week here.

(FYI: the images used to show the numbness areas in this post are old images of my foot. Just the red sections are current status.)

6.5 Months Post-Op Update

  (28 weeks)

I'm doing better, thank God. It has been touch and go with trying to walk in sneakers at the track with a reasonable pace. As you would imagine it's difficult at the beginning, but if you keep at it, it gets better. It feels good to get out and move. 

I did have a little something I'm not happy about though. Because the fourth toe sits lower than it should, while walking, the entire bottom of it (its full length, not just the tip) rubs against the sole of a shoe with more force than a normal toe would. This caused it to blister. 

I didn't want this to derail me at the track so I would wrap it with a band-aid. The healing seemed slow no matter how much Neosporin I was using. One morning I got the the track and realized I had forgotten to bandage it, but I wasn't too worried because the blister had been drying out. I improvised and wrapped my toe with a piece of paper. That seemed to work fine until I got home.

I then realized that the paper prevented my 5th toe from moving properly and it now had a blister as well! Fun stuff huh?

PAIN

The pains I use to have in my heel are gone.

The congestion is also gone.

I'm working on the sciatic nerve pain that developed during this whole process. It has lessened, but very slowly, and I have to work at doing exercises to accomplish this. I'm happy that it's improving.

The past month has been a time of endurance. Going out to do a few errands and getting home with a leg that begins to ache. I rest it and then I'm fine again. So it's a matter of building up my endurance. I can't wait till I can go to a museum and walk through the art for a day and not be hurting by the end of it. The thought makes me smile. ;o)

So the platelette feeling on the bottom of my foot was temporary. At 7mo, it's gone.


So is the tendon pain, and need for prescription painkillers. Halleluyah!

What I have now is stiffness. In the morning, the tendons and joints (bunionectomies) are very stiff. I have to stretch it all out to get started.

I've been walking for 4 months now and I have yet to walk in closed dress shoes. I've spent my time in flip-flops, I was unable to fit into a pair because remember, I had the bunionectomies on my right foot just 8 weeks ago. It still gets swollen and the incisions are too sensitive for a hard closed shoe.

Winter is coming so maybe I'll spend the time in a comfy boot. Hard closed shoes may have to wait for the spring?

One of my biggest lessons is this blog. I love that I accomplished what I set out to do, which was to tell all of it in detail so those considering it will be able to plan and anticipate accordingly. But the negative side affect it had on me was just that, negative. It made me focus each week on what was not working, the pain, etc.

I believe this did not help my own healing process. It's a lesson learned for me. I always knew that staying positive can work wonders and now I have my own personal proof on that account.

So in your journey, get the info, compare notes, but feed yourself good thoughts DAILY! It will help a lot. ;o)

5.5 Month mark!

                  Right Foot                                          Left Foot
               Normal 4th toe                       4th toe one-stage correction

My left 4th toe doesn't have a normal curve like my right, but it still looks lovely. ;o)

Top: non-weight bearing
Bottom: weight bearing

The upper image (12 wks) is non-weight bearing. The profile of the fourth toe looked very low.

At five and a half months post-op its profile isn't any higher, but the the other toes are lower because I'm bearing weight. Less swelling and weight bearing makes the 4th toe not look so different, huh? ;o) My third toe seems to be pretty floaty. I feel this is because it use to have to go to the left to do the job of the 4th toe as well, and now it doesn't.

              11 weeks post-op                            24 weeks post-op

At eleven weeks I couldn't bend my foot all the way forward. Now I can. ;o)








FYI: Four weeks since my right foot bunionectomies. Still soar. Still only short walks, but I improve daily. ;o) 

Left foot
Pretty amazing, huh? ;0)


I'm still doing my fourth toe exercises.

MORE LENGTH!

On a whim I decided to do some comparing today. Glad I did! I hope this gives you hope with your own surgery!

At 13 weeks I accepted that I received 10mm in length. However, today shows that I now have 12.5mm in length, yay.

I mean I was fine with it before, but this is certainly nice too. ;o) I'm also noting in this photo that my forth toe isn't resting behind my 5th toe as much. That's good too!


Stay positive!

Some More Updates —22 weeks

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Right Foot

This is how things are looking 3 weeks after Bunionectomy surgery. 

Just today I was in a rush and showered without a bag over my foot for the first time. It's ok but you can't go scrubbing in that area. Have to be real gentle still.

 If you look REEEEAL good you can see the knot from the desolvable stitches at the very top of the scar from my big toe.

• I could go up and down the stairs (boot on) one foot over the other starting the 2nd week. This was very different with the Brachy surgery. I couldn't do that till 15 weeks after surgery.

• Drove at 2wks also. With Brachy (cuz I drive a stick shift) driving had to wait till the 14th week!

• There were stitches at my pinkie toe that had to come out. IT WAS SO PAINFUL! But VERY short lived!

• Dr. West wanted me to wear the boot for 5 wks. Dr. Yes figured on 3 weeks instead. 

• I saw Dr. Yes at 2 weeks, and he wanted to see me again at 3 weeks, but I'm not going to go. He already told me that oin that appointment he'll be giving me a specific bandage (that I already have) and that he'd be putting my in my own sneakers if it wasn't too painful. So I'm just going to do that myself and save myself the $40 each visit.

• Dr. West wants 5wk xrays sent to him so I'll go to Dr. Yes at 5wks for that.

Left Foot

If I go the whole day without propping my foot up this is what it looks like. There is still some swelling that occurs. The top of my foot is pretty veiny, but you can't see my veins here.

At 22 wks I'm just now starting to try and sit for longer periods of time. I think I'm starting to be able to do this with just some manageable discomfort because of the physical therapy I'm doing for my sciatic never. I'll post those exercises next time.

Tootles.

5 Month Update! —Brachy

Howdy all!

I had bunionectomy surgeries on my right foot 10 days ago.
I'm happy that all the surgeries are under my belt. Now I can concentrate on recovery alone. Praise God for his goodness. 

The most difficult thing right now at the 5 month mark is my left foot not being able to handle 100% weight bearing...  and neither is my right foot! So being on my feet is painful after like 5 min right now. This is combined with the leg pain due to my sciatic nerve. —But it will all get better.

I'm working on physical therapy at home. It's slow going. I tried stopping my Meds 6 days after right foot surgery. Wanted to manage the pain on my own, but the pain actually just pissed me off after the 4th day without them. So I said, "Screw this! I'm taken um."

I haven't used the percocets (Roxicet) since the first week, and I only take one of the Hydrocodones at a time instead of the two that are allowable, but it makes a world of difference.

It upsets me because: 1. I just want to be well on my own, and 2. the medication alters how the brain perceives pain.... I don't like that. 

Bunionechtomies - Right foot
The tape you saw on my foot from my last post stays on 2 wks. And sutchers come out 2 wks post-op too.

While at the market, in line, I stand like this because my left foot hurts more than my right.

It's only been one week and as I stated way before my 2nd surgery, truly, my right foot is a picnic compared to my left foot.







Range of Motion Update - Left foot

Left foot

It has improved. Click here to see how it was in the 10th week.












The Way it Feels

Left foot

Remember the sensation I talked about in this post? Well it's still there, but it's less intense. I notice it the most when I wake up in the morning. When I first set my foot on the floor and walk. The sensation reminds me and I look for me foam flip flop to put on right away. So the intensity has decreases and will most likely continue to decrease.


Shoes
Other than sneakers now and then I'm mostly wearing foam flip flops. I really can't report yet on closed shoes. It will be a few months before that will happen cuz it's summer and my scars are still too sensitive.


Tootles!

Right foot— 1st Post-op visit

It's been three days since surgery. Nothing out of the ordinary. Had  xrays taken. Had much of the bandages replaced. Tape stays.

 

Like before, desolvable stitches were used everywhere except the bunionette area (pinkie). (My best guess is because the skin there is thicker and needs stronger sutchers?)

No cleaning was done at this time. In two days I go back home. In two weeks, if all looks well, my post-op doctor, Dr. Yes, will remove the sutchers from the bunionette.

Less swelling this time around without the Brachy surgery. ;o)

Well this was it, I'm not likely to see Dr. West or his staff again. ;0(  We hugged and said our goodbyes, but not before taking a photo together. ;0)

He is recommending I have an orthodic insole made. He charges about $400 for a custom graphite one. One that is not custom, he says runs about $80.

This recommendation is to reduce normal foot pain. I'll have to look into it. I wonder if my insurance covers any of the cost? (update: turns out they don't.)

Ciao.

Fusion Pain-Pump Came Undone

Well, this evening, much to my surprise the tube to my pump came out. I called Dr. West right away to see what the proper course of action should be. He said not to try and reinsert it. He said nothing could really be done now (the weekend).

I may have to take more pain killers now. I had already been feeling pain in my bunionette area. I think it was because the tube had come undone without me knowing it about an hour or so before I noticed.

So that's the latest then.

Tadahhhh, Finally I'm BUNIONLESS!

So the surgery went off. I was under for half, if not even less than half the time of my left foot. I came out of the anesthesia much clearer too. I actually remember getting dressed this time!  ;o)

Same as before, my right foot had to be marked before surgery.

And again, I added a little foot humor to hopefully keep them laughing in the operating room. ;o)

The IV went in and I waited around a bit before my anesthesiologist delivered my cocktail through the IV. Then I was wheeled away into the operating room where there was some happening music being played. Then I conked out. 

I didn't know if the fusion pain-pump was just for the Brachy last time, but it turns out I have it this time too. (one tube this time though, instead of two.)

Without the ace bandage, you can see the seeping of blood. Eeew.

I'm not to remove the dressing. That will be done by Dr. West when I see him in 3 days.

The bruising that I can see is on my big toe.

Here are my lovely friends again. ;0) I won't need the Roxicet until after the pump comes out. Most definitely for travel back home. (Again, I was given a prescription for a 4th drug to reduce nausea. Again, I didn't fill it cuz my stomach is pretty solid.) FYI: These medications keep me awake.

Making the breakfast smoothie the morning after at mom's. (the hospital didn't tape the tube to my leg this time, so I had to do it. ;o)

I'm suppose to only have my leg down for 5 minutes at a time, and only once in every hour. That is very hard to do.

For now, I feel more pain in my 5th bunion than my first. (pinckie toe)

Later.